Either you understand it or you dont . But well , nobody's gonna see this .

Once upon a time, there was this dove named J.

This dove's life and relationship was going on well, she's always happy without feeling vexed or etc. One day she hurt another dove once and once again for a long time, till the dove's injuries eventually recovered.

And then, that's when the karma's starts attacking the dove.

Many rl problems came up.

Being the third party of a rl which she doesn't want to.

Being fucking stupid for a long period of time.

Untill one day she finally wake up, and get out of these shit she dropped into.

And finally!

She was back to those non-vexed feeling days for a period of time.

She enjoyed playing with her other dove friends, and even became good friends with the couple which she became the third party before.

Untill one day.

She met this special dove, which attracts J alot.

On that night, that special dove cried due to some reasons while she's talking to J's best friend and she felt tired and fell asleep on J's thigh.

J knew that this dove wont have any feelings for her. J's good friends even told J that it wont have an good ending liking that special dove.

But then J's stubbornness ignored her friend's warning. And took a step closer to know more about that 'Special dove'.

After months,

Many things happened. J's good friends was right.

J was being stupid and by the time she knew she was wrong, it's too late to turn back.

J fell deeper into that dark hole,

J dug the hole herself, and jump inside, Struggling everyday to get up, but it's not as easy as how she ever ever thought.

J always felt happy for a moment, hell for a moment. Up and down continuously.

Untill one day, J eventually broke contact w that Special dove,

after being always by her side for a long time.

She woke up everyday with teary eyes, feeling like hell.

No words could explain how J felt for that moment.

Till one day, J broke down.

All of her good friends surrounding her, giving her support, trying to get her up from the hole.

After a period of time,

J stand up again as herself. But, she decided to be by special's dove side as she promised to.

but she rather she's the one suffering, at least she can still be friends with special dove.

But J's always suffering when she sees something that affects her, but she cant show it out.

J doesn't want things to go worse or back to last time.

She's really so affected after she saw some things today.

she only can blame herself, she saw the title, she knew she'll feel so affected after she read everything, yet she still continues.

So untill now, J is always still beside special dove, getting her up whenever she needs help or so.

J knows that she's always a very good friend. Not a little bit more then that.

J wonders how the ending would be, and when would it be.

Either the positive one, or the negative one.

Ranting.

There's so many things i wanna say . Yet nothing comes out in the end .

There's so many things i wanna do . Yet i got no guts to do anything .

I can't keep on like this sia . Walan . Idk what to do .

wtf . pekcek . there's no way we could communicate properly .

i tried so many ways to stop . it wont work .

I had too much hopes .

Everynight . turning left and right . Thinking what should i do .

I also wanna ask why so many people but you ?

But too bad . My heart wont answer me .

Epic me .

There's so many why in every action .

But i guess is i think too much .

You never liked me .

It's me , one sided .

I'm so angry at myself .

I know it takes time to stop .

But i can't wait and i don't want to .

Can someone tell me what to do ?

After 53241235432525432 days i finally gehyian to update my blog ^^ !!!!!

Idk what to post . -_-

Fuck my life's my favorite word now .

Not schooling alr . Enough of studying !

Have to find work and work alr !

Will be going to malaysia for five days on the 22nd untill 26th .

Don't feel like going but no choice . -.-

What is it has to do w me if they wanna marry . I also not their mother tio bo . LOL

New year was quite fun .

Only those part at grandma house was bored .

After that at safra v fun . wahaha .

Nothing much to post . bye .

i hope my papa will recover.

Sometimes i wanna hold on , sometimes i felt like giving up .

Sometimes i felt so happy , sometimes i felt so sad , sometimes i felt so angry , sometimes i felt so jealous .

Something's so damn wrong w me . -'-

Sup Tor daos and Xi gueys !!!

I'm bored in the middle of th night , so i'm gonna blog . heh heh .

It's 4:40am.

Didn't enjoy even now i'm having holiday lo .

I GOT NO LIFE. FML.

Eat, sleep, wake up, eat, go out slack, go home, eat, sleep and it continues and continues .

And i remember today when i was in the bus alone to safra, two bloody smelly indian woman sat infront of me and they almost suffocate me to death siah . WTF EH !!

Than when they get down from da bus i very happy .

Than a indian guy came and sit w me. Jitao no fresh air siak the whole journey .

I'm not racist uh , is i can't stand the smell . LOLOL .

Win liao uh !! (Y)

Zzz !!

Anw today sucks . Yeah . Fcuk .

My mood just goes up and down -'-

Well , i got nothing to blog also .

So, byebye !

HELLOS .

Didn't blog for very very very very long !

I've got nothing to do so i'm blogging today . Hehe.

Went to school for CPA paper and Maths paper 1 today.

Slept 1hour @ Maths paper.

Woke up sweating. Wtf. Although the hall like cold only.

No school tomorrow. Weeeee (Y) ~

This friday, Last day of school ! Maths paper 2 , End at 10am+

That's it ! After that my own life alr. Wahahaha.

Gonna dye hair. Enjoy lifestyle liao.

END OF FUCKING SECONDARY SCHOOL LIFE. (Y)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thumbs up maximumxz !! Jitao Song bo !

I know i sound like suagu uh .

But i really hate waking up in the morning to go to school. Waste of time only. HEH.

Went to heights slack w trouble, brather , banana, ahdi and lileng today.

Idk what's w my mood nowdays.

It goes up and down like nobody business. Zzz.

WELL !

i'm dead sleepy. Yet i don't wanna sleep.

That's all.

Byebye.

Hellos !

Short post !

Watched Haunted changi @ vivo city.

Watched w , bestie , brather , feodore , clare , farah , jingyi , darren , junyang ! :D

I paid 10 dollars to watch the movie in the end i got scared since the start of the movie to the end . (Y) BO ! HAHAHA .

Ytd went to vivocity with , farah brather feodore clare jingyi darren yongshen carabelle barry huiping .

That's all ! Byebye .

YO WASSUPZ .

Slacking these few days w th same people ~

Was w Brather , feodore , darren , barry , carabelle , huiping , farah and clare just now .

Went to safra play pool !

Papa came and fetch me home .

Idk post what liao also .

BYEEEE ~~

HELLO .

SHORTPOST~

• Ton w darren, carabelle and barry and idk who @ around commonwealth area ytd.
• Went home at 7+ morning , bath than went down all sleeping go went up again and read book than went to sleep .
• Today, woke up around 5pm , went to look for bestie than zoe came to collect her school bag from bestie than went to abc hawker wait for carlson than take bus go bukitmerahview eat

Papa fetched me home after that .

I'm not gonna sleep ! If i'm going to school . Heh ~

That's all . BYEBYE

Whataya want from me

Hello !

I got nothing much to post about today , cuz i woke up around 7pm i think ?

Than i rush to eat , rush and bath .

But bobian need wait my papa come back pass me money than can go out . Zzz .

Walked around my house area to commonwealth to find cab . But totally no cab .

Either those cabs are hired or on call . Wait untill sibei pekcek also eh !! -_- !

Than at the end took MRT down to bugis because zoe need go home le .

Meet brather , feodore and bestie .

Than clare came .

Than slack around illuma 7th floor . do nothing .

Than go eat than took bus go bestie's house , papa fetched me around 1.30am ++ idk uh .

I know i'm selfish . I know i'm fucking stubborn !!

But i will also regret being stubborn after that kay .

The moment i heard bestie and brather told me something , i felt like i'm a fucker eh . Zzz . I'm so sorry . Really very sorry eh !

Sometimes i don't understand why i cannot just give in ? Fuck eh .

You immediately thought of me . Yet i disappoint you always . Sorry .

I don't deserve you .

Kay shall stop this .

Ahaha .

Bye .

Yo . ^^

Didn't update blog for a few days i think .

Okay now i'm gonna update !! Heh .

Didn't go to school today !

And i took back my prelims result .

Jitao can take and throw away -.- Accept for my english paper uh !

Do badly for my maths and science . (Y)

Went to school on monday . Lepak at hawker sit all the way .

Tuesday never go school . Lepak at hawker also .

Wednesday went to school , idk go where i forget liao. LOL

Thursday overslept .

Only went out to meet farah and joey awhile today .

Than went home around 11pm .

Not going school today . Heh .

That's all !

Byebye !!

Feeeeels like tonight !

Hello ! Wasupxz. LOL.

Woke up quite late today around 3pm + ?

Nuaaa around my bed than on com use .

Than nuaaaa bath , wait for clare reach commonwealth .

After that prepared than went to carpark meet clare smoke .

Than took MRT to tiong meet baby , bestie , wilson and michelle .

Do nothing Lepak lepak .

Lepak till night , bestie went off :(

Than baby went off too and sent wilson to bus stop .

Slack lepak at baby's house downstair than buy cig , water .

Smoke , lepak than took bus back to commonwealth w clare ,

Halfway my dad called me than ask me alight at the queensway busstop to fetch me go home .

Sorry clare ~ Hehehe .

That's all , Oh my gosh , So shag .

Tomorrow got school :( !

FML TO THE MAX EH !

Okay that's all and Off to sleep !

Byebye !!

I love beebee :)

Mad World !

Hello , I've not been using blogger for a fucking long period .

And now i'll be using blogger back .

Today is the 7th month Hungry Ghost Festival when the time strikes at 12a.m sharp .

Got goosebumps anot ?

I GOT ALOT SIAK !

LOL .

Anyway , Today i woke up quite late because of being so tired .

Being so tired because of ?

Wahahaha . - Peace - !

Than went to meet darren , carabelle huiping barry yanling at Holland's Block 7 !

Than took bus to clementi ... Lepak lepak do nothing sibei sian.

After that we took bus 106 to Raffles place , Baby came . Clare came . Barry went off to idk where .

Than darren and carabelle start quarreling again .

Irritating siol ! Keep quarrel , Buey sian one eh ?

Than we walk around , See fireworks . Barry came back with two BAOCHA wigs LOL

Than he wore the black one and darren wore the white one . Like two siaopeh -.-

Laughing none stop today ....

Went to clementi , Lepak again .

Send baby off than went back , kena screened .

Zzz ! Bullshit siol .

Than when it's 11pm plus......

Everyone start to scared . HAHAHA

Clare's thailand fuo broke into half . LIKE OH MY GOSH .

We took bus 106 to ghimoh there .

Send barry and carabelle home , Send huiping home .

Left Clare , darren and myself .

Than we more ganchiongs Zzz !

Then clare send me and darren by cab home than she cab home also .

That's all !

Byebye ~

Anyway i don't want to du tio gui eh . So brothers and sisters i never huan tio you you don't come hung me !

SAYONARA ~

-

Many things happened in the past . I don't want to care much either . What comes around goes around . Now my life is back to perfect ! So anyone also don't come and spoil my perfect life eh !

And to you ,

I've got nothing else to say than sorry .

Thanks for cheering me up when i'm down !

Thanks for making me laugh , thanks for being there la aiyo . I So loso for what uh !

I can't do anything to make you happy though . Dui bu qi ! ._.

Chao ahgua is here for you also la aiyo . :D

I'VE GOT NOTHING TO SAY TO YOU .

Attitude so jialat .

You go ark kar liao with my brother first :) !

Joking .

Laughs ~

NOT USING BLOGGER ANYMORE .
USING TUMBLR .
imarhjas-yeah.tumblr.com :)

HEHHEHEHE.

I am LAZY to POST. :D
Dead dead dead blog . wolala . zihigh .
Colourful hor?
blackshot-ing , raycity-ing nowdays .
ok bye. :D

I luv my life naw. i luv my frens. :)
i luv my aino. :DD HAHAHAHAHAHA .

I found this photo in my pictures file .
Which is 2 or 3 years ago?
Sec one or two the time take de.
LOL
Another person inside i dunt remember is who .

Well , i didn't go out today ,

Darren came , smokesmoke chat.

Then he went off around 7pm+ .

Doing my blog things , super boliao so changed a new skin again .

Going school tomorrow , although my knee still hurts , but not as much as my elbow.

Jik gu wey ! (Hokkien)(One word).

FML.

Nothing much to post also .

Going sleep alr .

GOODNIGHT YEAH .

Arhjas .

Epic suey day .

Woke up in da evening 5pm plus, darren came and knock my window LOL.Decided to ride bicycle around,before that meet zoe at commonwealth awhile, took bus 100 to gimoh. Then ride bicycle to redhill there, then bukitmerah.Here are some photos took.
Da last photo is i fell down. my elbow got two holes -.-
Look like some karma to me. arg.

This is MichelleNg Guailan helping ArhJas to post.

Helloooos peoples,
Arhjas its like dem lazy pig la.She hasnt been blogging for 23days lor.PIG!!
She should thanks to mie for being so kind to her help her to post lehh..I'm a busy lady horr!!
She even her link boxs she also lazy to link people back D;.People out there go scold her!.
How can she lazy to link us back sia..Idiot Idiot Idiot..Shit..Now its 3am and I'm like high TTM.
hmm..I have nothing more to post liao..Orh..Jas ah Jas ah Don't smoke liao lehh..!! Quit or you will die from this..=X..Shit..I shall stop posting liao or her post going to become siaosiaosiaosiao..

This is her jiehjieh Michelle say byes D;.

Remembering the times

Love bunny ! :)

Hey guy , it's ZoePerryDa'LoveChooDeeDeeShuyi ! :D
If you realised Arhjas hasnt been blogging for quite some time , thus , being one with a heart of gold , I WILL DO IT !
Whahahahahaa .


Guess what .
I miss everything .
All the past times before all these happens .
Jas is an awesome girl , she rocks .
I regret hurting her so much .
Makes myself sad as well , knowing that she's in pain .

We are like , seemingly torturing each other .

But then again , obstacles are what makes us stronger .
And we'll grow after every pain .
I wunt give up on my baby .

BABY WE'RE INVINCIBLE ! ♥


I miss you .
I love you .

Sorry .

Went to school today .

Had my chinese commontest . Slept till next period , MATHS.

Took back my commontest paper , failed . -_-

Next period was CPA .

Need to do coursework , But idk how . So i slept again till the next period again .

Was so tired ... :( ..

Went to recess w bee , yanling , yuwen .

But still yangyang's table opp me , Joycelyn's table behind me ..

Then had english lesson ..

Then assembly .

After school went to smoke .

Went back commonwealth's area .

Bee and farah came to find me .

Then darren came , bee and farah went off back tuh school for remedial..

Went home bath , watch tv , rotttt.

Then prepare , go longjohn meet joycelyn and darren .

Went to ps's jcube played 2hours l4d. Hais .

Took MRT to vivo meet carlson , dylan .

Then play arcade .... Rot at there .

Then got some problems came .

Went to take bus around 11.45pm w dylan and darren ,

Joycelyn and carlson took bus another side tgt.

Slowly walk home ...

Bath , now using computer .

Gudbye .

Arhjas loves bee.

Sorry for not spending the time you wanted w you always .

I know i'm totally nothing to compare to other people who treats you da best .

But today was the first time i felt so uncomfortable .

Unhappy .

Not in the real mood to do anything .

Supersupersuper stress .

Idk why too .

I was really speechless today.

I really dunt know what to say to make you happy .

I'm sorry,

I'm useless .

Went to school as usual today .
Meet joycelyn bestie in da morning :D .
Had science common test .
Idk what i doing in the test also . Like totally dunt know how do .

Then went recess ,
aiya as usual school things .
After school went to smoke ,
Went to bee's house with farah also :D .

Then darren came .
Went home around 7pm plus .

Nothing much .
Idk what to say uh
I'm speechless towards you ,
Why must you make yourself feel so hard and upset .
You shouldn't do this , Like seriously .

i love bee :)

JOYCELYN BESTIE !
Cheerup lur . Don't be so upset anymore okay .
Bestie and yangyang will always be there for you :)
At the most we do sarcastic stuns make you laugh lah. LOL.
hee :) !